Yesterday is history, and tomorrow is a mystery.

****WARNING: I AM FEELING LYRICAL****

So, today was my second day at the credit union. AND I LOVE IT. I feel like an adult... finally. Again, it's only my second day, but I have faith it will be great! I will be great. Wanna know why? I've got God on my side.

Happiness hit her like a train on a track
Coming towards her stuck still no turning back
She hid around corners and she hid under beds
She killed it with kisses and from it she fled
With every bubble she sank with her drink
And washed it away down the kitchen sink
"Dog Days Are Over"-- Florence and the Machine

I am washing the past down the kitchen sink. I'm not going to be that girl anymore. I'm not gonna be that girl who can't stand on her own two feet because she's focused on something completely irrelevant to her own happiness. I need to regain the strength I once had, and renew it to fit my new life. I smelled a familiar smell today that made me realize that I have to do this or sink with the ship. My Momma has a similar hair product to one that she used to use. It didn't occur to me that it was the same scent until after it was in my hair. I fought tears for a couple of hours this morning. (I stayed with her for two nights for business styling purposes, oh and to spend time with her and Miss Mads). I realized by my midmorning break that I was being ridiculous. I am still being ridiculous. I know that what was, is completely unattainable. Why? Because it was a lie. I will not live a lie, no matter how good it felt. Doesn't mean I don't miss it. But then I think about reality, and it isn't so bad. She picked up her stuff, as well as the fish, on Saturday. She brought Houstan. Just to spite me. Oh well, it was just another opportunity to catch her in lies. Her foot isn't broken. Not even close.


Here's a bombshell just for you, turns out I've been lying too--"White Liar" Miranda Lambert

I told some fish tales in the beginning to test her trust. Is it right? Absolutely not. I 'fessed up to all but one, and it's funny to watch her think it poses a threat to me. Whatevvvvvvv.

Reach for the sky, cause tomorrow may never come-- "Reach for the Sky" Social Distortion

Until next time, peace and love.